Decisions - The Fresco Way.

Decisions are kind of like playing paintball. Confused?

Here're my awesome diagram skills for ya. 

Let's assume that this guy on the left is a representation of you. (It's okay, we're just assuming). Let's call him Mr. Fresco. Now, there have been several theories about acquired and ascribed characteristics, but for now, we're just gonna assume that all human beings are born colorless and bored, without a personality. You are just getting the hang of life, and haven't started making any decisions. You still don't know what you want/need. In other words, that's Mr. Fresco before he knew paintball existed. That's you before you made any decisions. 

Now, soon Mr. Fresco grows up and starts developing and thinking for himself. He starts understanding who he really is, and kind of has an idea about himself. He has figured himself out and knows who he is, and what kind of things he basically wants. In other words, that's Mr. Fresco before he played paintball. That's you when you started making some decisions. -->

After a few years, Mr. Fresco starts attending schools and parties, and you know, just having a life in general. He meets many people and makes many new friends. His friends influence him and decide for him what Fresco should want, and causes him to make decisions. Some change his life, in a good way and some in a bad way. Now he has several shades to who he originally was. In other words, that's Mr. Fresco after he played paintball- covered in different paints, and now he looks much different than earlier. That's you after you made some more decisions (bigger than earlier ones).

But eventually, Mr. Fresco goes like What the hell, I'm gonna have some more fun. His friends impact his decisions in life more and more. Earlier, Fresco didn't like to smoke, but now his friends influence him and convince him to decide that smoking is cool. Earlier, Fresco hated cupcakes, but then his girlfriend made cupcakes for him and impacted his decision on whether he should like cupcakes or not. In other words, that's Mr. Fresco after he spends the whole weekend playing paintball and gets completely drenched to the extent that his own mother couldn't recognize him. In fact, he couldn't recognize himself! That's you after you made major life-changing decisions.

So what has happened here? Mr. Fresco is a perfect example of how people play too much paintball these days, and get drenched with paint to such an extent that they lose their own base colors (pink, in Mr. Fresco's case). 

Sometimes, that's what happens to us. It's as if the paint/amount of paint you're covered with is the consequence of your decisions in life. The amount of paint your friends are covered with is the consequence of how much your decisions affect them. And the extent to which the paint makes you unrecognizable shows how much you have changed in the process. 

Of course, it's really easy for us to say that we got influenced naturally, and of course we got influenced naturally. In fact, it is impossible to not get influenced by people around us. However, we do have a say in decisions. We can DECIDE whether we want to get influenced or not. The power to decide may differ from people to people- some may be stubborn, some may be easy to manipulate. It is also up to you to make decisions about things that you know will change your life. It ranges from big ones like marriage to little ones like whether you should drink pepsi or coke. And some of these choices can rattle your minds and make you pop your eyes out like an owl, but the trick to reaching decisions is to decide how much it will affect your life and how much it will affect you as a person.

For instance, years later, Mr. Fresco may meet this really cool girl named Frescina and decides that he wants to marry her, but will he have to change in order to accomplish this task? Obviously, some changes will be required. He will have to shave more often and shop for groceries, but does that mean he will have to stop eating peanuts because his wife hates the very scent of peanuts? Or will he have to give up his X-Box because his wife hates video games? Now, Fresco may be willing to sacrifice some of that. He goes like What the hell, Frescina is way more important. But is she? Will she change you to such an extent that your own mother would not recognize you? To the extent that you won't recognize yourself?

Your life may be 70% consequences of your decisions and 30% result of luck/coincidences. Or maybe 99% decisions and 1% luck. I can't be sure of the percentages, because it differs from person to person. But one thing that you should be careful of, is to never lose yourself. If you were a bad person and have a heavy criminal record, the case differs, obv. But let's just assume that you are awesome the way you are (which I'm sure you are). You should never have to give up who you are in return for something/someone allegedly better/good for you. If Frescina is too demanding, forces you to wear floral outfits, and make you promote child labor, you should really reconsider your decision. It is in cases like these that you weigh your choices and decide what's more important- your identity, or the prize. If the prize is bigger, go for it. If it's not, think again. 

On a personal note, I have always considered myself a rather stubborn person. I have too much pride to change myself for other people, or things, or ideas, or decisions. That makes me sound shallow and non-risk-taker, but really, is it worth giving up my own identity for someone else? If that person is truly amazing and a true necessity in my life, I may be willing to sacrifice certain aspects of my identity. But if the consequences are gonna make me covered in paint that I don't want on me, then what's the point? That is the question that helps me make decisions in life. Of course, everyone has different ways, but this is simply how I think. 

...So yeah. That's my philosophy/explanation, you could say. This is a really complicated topic and opinions differ, and I tried my best to make it sound as simple as possible, and I'm sorry if I failed. If I have confused more, feel free to ask for explanation, I'll explain personally. Actually, I may be confused myself. -.- 

Till then, please have some pity. Wrote all this with a first-class writers block :P 

Much love, 

V-Day Special.

The whole day literally has a pink tint. It comes from wrapping papers and chocolate covers and blushes and flowers and all those kinds of things. Moreover, this picture has become the theme.

Unfortunately.

But of course, if you're single, you're gonna find all this overwhelmingly cheesy. For me, it feels like a way of rubbing in the fact that you're single, and watch Archies and chocolate industries prosper. If I tell you that V-day could also stand for Vomit-Inducing Day, would you kill me? :P
But I'm not here to ruin your mood, don't worry. I'm just here to share my v-day post because someone told me that blogs are incomplete without one. So here ya go!

Types of Couples:

A collection of experience and drama.
*Note- Any resemblance to real people is purely coincidental. If offensive in any way, it's unintentional.

1) Snobs- You enter a fancy Italian restaurant and hear a huge commotion. You look to the direction of the unearthly sound and hear the scream of a woman covered in makeup wearing the most elegantly designed Utopian outfit. Her husband is yelling at the waiter in a made-up Brit accent, something about there being only 2 plates of noodles when he ordered exactly 1.23 plates. His woman screams again and throws the 2 million dollar ring in front of him and walks off. Poor guy. He wipes his face with his 200 dollar silk hand-stitched handkerchief. 

2) Disturbing nicknames- "I love you my sock-candy" "Come here, you shoopy moopy" "Awwwwww baby you're my little wummy ear-hair" "I could just eat you up, my cuddle-popsickle" 

3) The Couple Who Can't Be Moved- You can play a banjo in their ears  or The Script song or there may be a hurricane outside, but these couples will simply not budge from their dreamworld. Their eyes are locked to each other and they won't care if you get run over by a bullock cart, coz they just won't budge.

4) The couples who act like they're not couples-  These are common among first-timers when they're too shy or egoistic to show their love for each other. These couples tend to act highly insulted when associated with their so-called lover and pretend to abuse each other. They force their friends to hang around with them when they try to sneak away to give some privacy, but still secretly want to be together.

5) Too much PDA- You're in the mall, in the middle of the main entrance area, and your eyes are just wandering around when you see a couple making out and getting all physical as you try your best to swallow down the bile that has been finding its way up. Even if you look away, you still can't seem to get rid of that scarring image in your head. You are completely grossed out. 

6) Revenge- This may mostly be one-sided, as sometimes people may date x to make y jealous. Your partner might not know that you are simply being used, and this kind of relationships usually end up with one person crying and the other person dying and the third person disgusted. Something along those lines.

7) The shy ones- Your eyes are on the floor at a 45 degree angle, just enough to see him through the corner of your eye to catch him looking at you. Then later your eyes meet again, and one of you will always make it a point to be nearby, but you both will just never talk. These 'couples' occur because none of them have the balls to confess, and either ends up with one person gathering guts to ask the person out, or the love just fading away because neither of you make the move for fear of being rejected.

8) Formal- These couples will follow the basic rules of courtesy and be a gentleman/lady to each other. They would spend approximately 4 hours and 48 minutes together, with constant breaks, and return before their curfew. They will hold hands for 3.8 minutes and address each other in the most respectful possible manner and assign kitchen duties to each other.

9) Boo Fighters- You hear them screaming on the phone, in the elevator, while watching a match, while cutting carrots, and they break up 700 times a day. Then they apologize and patch up 700 times more. Then they break up again. And that goes on forever.

10) Superheroes- These are the virtuous lovers who unite to do good for this world. They may start an orphanage together, or destroy Joker together, or extinguish a burning train together, or solve math problems together, or climb volcanoes together, all while wearing the same colored shirts. They seek adventure and passion but this one only works out if both of them are qualified and tested, non-couch potatoes. Here's one perfect example.

Yoko Ono and John Lennon in their campaign for peace

11) Friendzoned- Occurs between friends who start liking each other but don't know what's more important- their friendship or relationship. The guy/girl ends up being friendzoned with secret desires and dreams, whereas the other person just struts along trying to convince everyone (and him/herself) that they're just friends, when clearly, that's not the case.

12) Tough love- This is truly badass. The guy owns a badass bike and the girl has a badass tattoo. The guy has these intense glares and the girl just goes weak to her knees. The girl falls down and the guy catches her. Then they ride away in their badass bike and live a badass life in the underworld ...But in the non-badass sense, these couples just share this truly intense love which involves a lot of rhetorical questioning and it's overly dramatic and mostly seen in movies.

13) Long-distance- These estranged lovers constantly try and connect through technology but fail and cheat on each other, OR they wait until they unite and go crazy. Their love usually ends as a sad story, or a "Happily ever after" upon their meeting when the girl jumps on the guy and they embrace for hours.

14) Constant suspicion- These couples are more like spies than lovers. They probably have pen-cameras installed in your pockets and can track you down to find out where exactly and who exactly you were with at 7:48pm EST when you claimed you were busy. You will never be trusted and always spied on, so beware.

15) The unimaginable- One can never, ever, ever imagine these two together. One of them looks like a tadpole with a frisbee stuck inside, and the other is a freakin giraffe. One likes killing spiders in his spare time, and the other plays the clarinet with her toenails. They simply couldn't be thought of being together, but here they are, sharing an icecream, sitting on the same bench.

16) Couple-for-name- These couples are either a) desperate or b) wannabes. They fall into prey of peer pressure and want to date so people will think they are cool. They call themselves couples but don't even like each other. Or they're just so desperate that just being in a relationship somehow gives them a weird sense of satisfaction which is super hard for me to comprehend.

Then last but not the least, there is 17) Me- A single humbug who has remained so every year on this day for the last 16 years. I won't sigh because it's not really a bad thing. And for those who care about this day, once again, happy valentines daay, lovezies. I will try not to judge you. :* 

I have been Liebstered!!! :'D

So the bit of German I learned has actually come in handy, it seems :P

THANK YOU SO MUCH Ajay Kontham!!!! My first blogger award ever!!! *sniffs*
So yeah, I'm not very familiar with how this works, but I'm gonna try.

I have been awarded the Liebster Award. (fangirls)

Isn't it beaut? :')

For those of you who are clueless, Liebster is a German word, which means 'dearest' (Thank you Google translate and remains of German from 9th grade)

So here goes the rules:

1. Thank the bloggy who awarded you

2. Post 11 interesting things about yourself

3. Answer the 11 questions questioned by the nominator

4. Choose 11 bloggers, create questionnaire for them (of 11), and let them know via comments

I have already thanked the awesomazing Ajay (thanks again!) so now lemme proceed to 11 things about myself... hmm let's seeee:

1) I am a terrible dancer. I used to dance a lot when I was younger, and I also learned dance, but I don't know how and when it happened, but these days, I'm just terrible! I look like a drunk infant when I try. Sorry if I disappointed you :P

2) I wear 2 different socks on each foot 80% of the time. Because wearing the same colored sock on each foot is too mainstream. Or I simply don't have the patience to search for a pair of socks. 

3) I can't keep grudges. I'll admit that I do fight with my friends and family occasionally, but they usually get solved the same day. I simple can not keep grudges. I can't handle the guilt and the pain and everything. So I usually forgive everyone, making some excuse like "life is short". Of course, if people take advantage of this weakness of mine, I get pretty pissed.

4) I don't like touching wash basins. It's a really weird thing, like OCD or something, but I simply can not touch wash basins. If I ever touch one even by mistake, I spend the next half hour scrubbing the skin of my hand out.

5) I love dull colors. Again, I know that might be pretty weird. Almost 60% of the people I know love bright colors and constantly nag me for my weird taste of dull things. I buy faded clothes, ogle faded furniture and buy antiques. My eyes hurt when I see bright things. Dullness sort of gives me comfort.

6) I hate it when people grow their nails. I'll admit it looks nice on some people, but whenever people have long nails, I automatically tend to cringe away from them. I don't like the idea of possibly getting hurt by their stylish claws. 

7) I LOVE TRAVELLING. Which is kinda ironic because I get carsick, but I love visiting new places. In fact, I plan to visit everyfreakinplace in the world once I get out of college.

8) I am quite sensitive to people. My eyes tear up when I see orphans begging on the street, or a lonely old person. I simply can not stand people getting hurt. Whether in movies or in real life. I just pity too much.

9) I am not a morning person, and I'm suspicious of people who are. Haha, I'm like a little cockroach that comes out at night! (y) 

10) Sometimes, I get sick of people. Every day kind of has a set limit for me. If I spend a day socializing way too much, the next day I would walk away from people and remain alone. I can't really explain the feeling, but it just gets too annoying after a while. It feels great to have your thoughts to yourself, sometimes.

11) I hate stereotypes. Of course, it's pretty funny when you make jokes about stereotypes (dumb blonde), but if someone is serious, I just feel like slapping them. "Oh you're emo, so you must be cutting yourself. Oh she's weird,  let's not talk to her." Seriously, I have a tendency to defy the rules of thoughts that the society had created, and I always, always deviate from the typical. I am proud to think different, and I try to be as open-minded as possible.

So yeah, I guess you know me a bit better now! Moving on...

I'm gonna answer the 11 questions asked by my awesomazing nominator..

1. Look at the lower right corner of the screen and mention the Time, plz.- It's 11:41 PM! Yayy

2. How did you end up with your Blog Name?  - Haha, I have mentioned this in my FAQ as well, but I'll repeat. I saw the word 'awakenings' somewhere, and I liked it. Then I just randomly brainstormed a word to go with it, and fancy awakenings didn't sound too ghetto or gawdy, so I just went with it! 

3. Open your mobile phone and go to messaging. No! I am not giving my number for you to text me. 

   a. If the Inbox has more messages than Sent, then reply as 'Famous'. 

   b. If otherwise, well, reply as 'Even More Famous'. :P

Hahaha I'm FAMOUS! :D But mostly because of all these random advertising shit sent by companies "Buy sauna slim belt and reduce your belly" or "downld hot babez picz sizzling modelss"

4. What is the one word that is stuck in your mind most of the time? - "Realize" I really don't know why, but that word just seems to pop up everywhere in my head... 

5. Your favorite Fiction Character?- Umm... I think Spongebob!! He's so cute! :') 

6. The craziest thing you might have ever done. - It's really hard to pick one, but one time, I was in a car with a couple of friends when I saw a random stranger, asked the driver to stop, and asked him "Hey, can you tell me the way to Narnia?" The dude just stood there and gawked, and I quickly asked the driver to drive away. I'm pretty sure the stranger could hear the howls of laughter of my friends for a good number of miles! 

7. Between Truth and Dare , which choice would you go with ? - Dare! Truths are boring. 

8. One word for my blog. Note : Insane, Stupid, Wth?, Wtf? , bla bla have already been used. So, pick up something Nice, plz, plz, plz, plz.... :P- Hahaha, well one word would be awesomazing. Not only because it's like my favorite word, but also because your blog is awesomazing. You have such fun stuff. Keep writing :D 

9. What makes you write? - Inner urges. Writing is like a necessity for me. Writing is my outpouring of thoughts in the middle of the night. Writing is the cure to silence. Sometimes, I feel that if I won't write that very moment, I will explode. So yeah. 

10. Favorite line/proverb/quote.- That's a really hard question. I don't remember my most inspirational quotes and stuff, but all I remember right now is the song Everchanging by Rise Against. Its lyrics have inspired me a lot somehow. 

11. If ever there is a chance to meet the author behind this blog, would you meet ? (Plz say Yes! for my satisfaction at least... Kiddin' :P ) So ? - Hahah, yes of course!!! You seem like such an interesting person, that it would be so awesome if we could meet someday. 

...Okay so now I need to come up with 11 questions.... so here goes...

1) What would be your ideal weapon to fight a zombie apocalypse?

2) Who is your favorite singer/artist/band?

3) What is the ideal vacation spot, according to you?

4) Do you believe in miracles? 

5) Why do you have a blog?

6) If you could choose between your left and right eye to see with for the rest of your life, which eye would you choose? (That was pretty random..)

7) What is your favorite punctuation mark?

8) Do you own a pet? 

9) On a scale of 1 to 10, how random are you?

10) What do you think of my blog?

11) You are going to die in 10 minutes. What are you gonna do? :P

Okay, now it's hard to choose 11 bloggers, because I barely have anyone as a member, so I'll just tag everyone who I know right now haha.

Butterflies and Hurricanes

the creation of beauty is art. 

Spill beans

La La Land, Here I Come

the silence of the lambs

Pages off Life

Skinny love

Hot and Sweaty but Smells Good

Gawwhh. That's all I can tag for now. #woesofnewblogger

Phew. So that took quite some time. So glad I'm done!

Once again, thank you Ajay, and I'm so freaking glad I could be a part of this awesomeness. Seriously, I feel so honored! And for my readers, bloggers and non bloggers, thanks for taking time out to read this pointless blabbering and hopefully, this has helped you get to know me a bit better! You may or may not be surprised by what all you've learned about me today, and I just hope it didn't make me seem any less awesome than how awesome you think I am! Well I'm really tired now. Goodnight! *yawns* 

Letter to your annoyance

Dear annoyance,

   You think you're kewl? You think you're purrfecto? I am sorry I can't be amazing like you because I have other more important things to cater to. I don't need your "advice" or ways to let me down or suggestions or whatever it is that you call your ruthless running mouth. I don't need your criticisms or your shallow mind nose diving into my business. You may or may not intend to annoy me, but you, my lovely annoyer, have managed to be the cumulonimbus cloud to my perfectly sunny day. You can judge me xyz times and I may feel abc, but you know what you can't make me? Your own mind's manifestation. The world is not your handmade robots who tinkle when you say "tinkle". You are like the extension to my already long nails, or the piece of thread hanging on to my dress-unnecessary, insignificant, but annoying me like a pebble in my shoe, hoping to gain attention. Such a wannabe you are, aren't you ashamed of yourself? If I were you, I'd cocoon myself into a hammock and never come out, you know why? Coz everyone hates you. Keep your goddamn opinions to yourself and stop frying other people's brains because yours is already fried. You can eff off and live the life of an under appreciated tarantula and die the death of a kitten chewed and spat by a vulture(ouch). And even if that anticipated fate doesn't occur, you can blabber all you want, but you won't be heard. My ears are immune to your squacking and nothing can stop me from doing what I want to do the way I please to do it. Unless it will kill me, ofc.

   (And for my everloving supportive friends, I love you all and no, don't freak because that wasn't for you. You all are perfect the way you are and please don't get influenced by annoying good for nothing screechsnaps.)

Yours not-so-lovingly,
Annoyed but uninterrupted.